So Sweet….. Addicted to the treats!!!

O.K. there I said it “I am addicted to sweets,” I found my self sitting in my son’s bedroom with a half-full bag of yogurt covered raisins. As I munched on hand full after hand full of raisins I began to understand why I was and will always be fat! Now don’t get me wrong I will not always be fat physically but I will always deal with the mental aspect of being fat. So will you if you lose the weight so accept it now as hard as it is to lose the weight it is harder to keep it off. I’ll repeat it is harder to keep the weight off, now the good thing is once you get down you’ll be able to get it off easier because you will know how but we don’t even want to start the yo-yo dieting thing. Now I’ll tell you guys because I stay honest on this site because the people that came here are my support and I want them to understand what is going on. I gain 9 pounds in the last 3 weeks, right now I am at 199/200, horrible right? Well yes and no I had been struggling with what I should be doing which programs I should be incorporating and a whole bunch of other stuff. Well out the window with all of that junk, I’m going back to my body weight exercises and I’m going to do weights to. I’m going to train as hard as I have in the past, if I gain muscle great if I don’t that is good too. The bottom line is too get lean and to continue to do the things that I enjoyed during my weight-loss. Basically I’m going back to having fun, I’m not monitoring my protein intake any more, I’m not drinking a bunch of shakes that add to calorie intake, nope not going to do it. Oh another thing if you gain 10 pounds you can both see it in the mirror and feel it when you exercise, I suggest when you guy drop the weight you still keep an eye on the scale, it is better to lose 10 pounds than to have to lose 40. I’m feeling good getting back into the grove, keep supporting me I appreciate you all.



It might be time to regroup!

It might be time to regroup! As I have stated before I’m having a hard time with the cravings I have been having and quite frankly I’m a little scared. I keep losing control of what I eat (I understand how I gained all the weight). I haven’t been posting as often because I been a little embarrassed because I’m not progressing like I know I can. I decided that most of you will go through this, so why not post how I’m dealing with it. I feel like I got to keep up the good work because I don’t want to let anyone down, but who am I doing this for me or them? I don’t know I just feel guiltywhen someone comes up to me and says ” wow! you look great, what’s your secret?” I feel guilty because I know I just ate a few cookies or because I didn’t go to the gym today or for ever the reason. When I started I was doing it for me and I wasn’t looking for instant results, but I lost the weight fast (8 months almost 100 pounds) and now nothing. I know eventually I’ll get back to being discipline, but right now I have been struggling, I’m not going to stop trying but I do know that I’ll be doing this for the rest of my life. I would also like to thank John (lean & mean) and Muta (Mr. low body fat) for all of the encouragement, I have really needed it lately. Wish me luck……………..SadFace

The battle has offically begun! Maintaining weight-loss!

The battle has begun! I recently blogged about getting past my plateau and making it into the 180’s. Well I’m sadden to say that I am back to 192, well not really sad because I’ll stick to it and get where I need to be. The thing is I have been having sugar craving that are uncontrollable. I’m starting to fall into the late night trap of eating sugary snacks after hours. I’ll do great all day and when 1:00 am or 2:00 am rolls around there I am in the fridge looking for something to snack on. Last night it was raisin brand and peanut butter (yes together…I must be pregnant). I think I’m going to have to put healthy food choices in the house for snacking something really low cal. Well I don’t have much this week just trying to get it back in gear….wish me luck!